Y'ALL IT'S FINALLY FALL!!!!!!!!
On a serious note, this post is gonna be a little different than some of my past entries. A lot of things are weighing heavy on my heart and I feel like sharing it might help others going through similar situations realize that they are not alone. This post isn't me asking for sympathy, it's for others to relate to me and for them to feel comfortable reaching out to me for advice if they need it.
It's inevitable, we all go through heartbreaks. I wouldn't wish them on anyone. Whether the relationship lasted 2 months or 2 years, it's rough. It's hard going from talking to someone everyday about everything, to hardly speaking at all. It's hard to scroll through your camera roll at 2 A.M. and not cry because you realize all of those pictures are now memories you won't get back. It's hard knowing you did everything you could and realizing the spark just faded...
2. Losing friends
This all pretty much relates and goes with #1. If you have ever lost a close friend, you know it feels almost as bad, if not worse, than an actual breakup. Life changes completely. The number one person you used to call probably won't answer anymore and if they do, you both know the conversations just won't be the same. The once comfortable silences turn into awkward ones. You feel completely lost when something important or traumatic happens and you want to tell them about it right away.... But you can't. Sometimes friendships fade too. Life gets in the way and people change, I get it. But it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. And that, I think, is what makes it so much harder to move on. Friends are there for you during your highest highs and your lowest of lows. Losing a friend, someone who has been there through thick and thin, it's like losing a part of yourself.
3. Moving on
This part goes for #1 and #2. As time goes on, it gets easier living life without someone as your "go-to". It gives you time to really focus on yourself and put all that energy you were giving to others for so long, on yourself. Sometimes it's OK to just focus on yourself. Spoil yourself for a change. You move on eventually and you think you're doing good until someone or something reminds you of them. All it takes is one restaurant, one song, or one funny video on social media that you automatically want to send to them. And when you can't get them off your mind, you can't help but wonder if they're missing you like you're missing them. You wonder if they've been doing okay with the situation or if they've been struggling just as much as you have.
But what I've learned is this, yet again, everything happens for a reason. God places people in your life for certain reasons, even though we may have no idea what His reasonings are. And as hard as it is right now to admit it, breakups in any nature, are okay. I'm not saying ditch them or burn bridges with them just because you can, but if it's time for the relationship to end, then end it. Be mature about it and appreciate the fact that you once cared for these friends and give them closure as well. Hold on to the memories that you made together, because even though you will all continue to change, the memories never will.